Volume 11 Number 1 March 2000
The Process of Awakening: Looking at Our Hatred
Gloria Wapnick
Kenneth Wapnick, Ph.D.
In the past, we have written in these pages about the blatant expressions of hatred that abound in our
world -- both the world at large and the more personal world of our everyday relationships. It is the
ostrich in us that would pretend that this world's viciousness is only an aberration, while burying our heads
in the sand of rose-colored glasses, that see only the fruits of denial, not the fruits of the Spirit.
While it is certainly true that many spiritualities emphasize looking at the good, based on the presumption
that God created the world and the people in it, it is also certainly true that this is not the focus of
A Course in Miracles. Quite clearly, the Course parts company with those spiritualities that claim
this dualistic metaphysics, and states the exact opposite: God did not create the world, the body, or
form of any kind. Rather, we are taught by Jesus in A Course in Miracles that the world is the ego's
dream of fear that we have chosen as replacement for God's Love, and the miracle (or forgiveness) is the
means by which the awakening from this dream is accomplished. Thus we read:
...the basis for the miracle...means that you have understood that dreams are dreams;
and that escape depends, not on the dream, but only on awaking.... The dreams you think you like would
hold you back as much as those in which the fear is seen. For every dream is but a dream of fear, no matter
what the form it seems to take. The fear is seen within, without, or both. Or it can be disguised in pleasant
form. But never is it absent from the dream, for fear is the material of dreams, from which they all are made
(T-29.IV.1:3; 2:1-5).
Correctly understood, these sentences point out that the purpose of
A Course in Miracles is not to
help us make our dreams -- our physical lives here in the world -- a fulfillment of the hopes
contained within the individual dramas and roles that we have assigned to ourselves and others in the
dream. For example, people who seem to get what they want -- the
pleasant form --
will testify to their life experiences as being tremendously fulfilling. As the world judges it, they have made it.
Nonetheless, it is still the case that "every dream is but a dream of fear, no matter what the form it seems to
take." As Jesus tells us in the manual for teachers, based upon Freud's famous statement about the artist:
Power, fame, money, physical pleasure; who is the "hero" to whom all these things belong? Could they
mean anything except to a body? Yet a body cannot evaluate. By seeking after such things the mind
associates itself with a body, obscuring its identity and losing sight of what it really is
(M-13.2:6-9).
This is exactly what the world's dream does: Its purpose is to first make a body, then reinforce our
identification with this body, culminating in the body becoming the "hero" of the dream, whose every
need -- unconscious and conscious -- demands fulfillment. Many times, the goals of power,
or fame, or money, or physical pleasure -- separately or collectively -- are cloaked in a
religious or spiritual costume, hiding their real intent. Therefore they appear to be something other than what
they truly are -- illusory and deceptive, as is the world's dream. To legitimatize these hidden
agendas -- especially the religious and spiritual nature of the delusional roles we assume for
ourselves -- God, Jesus, the Holy Spirit, or some other holy figures are brought in and quoted as
speaking to us, confirming our special mission to humankind. Needless to say,
special missions need
special followers, and so seekers are seduced and need to be convinced of the inherent holiness of
their
special leader or
teacher. All this manipulative and pseudo-spiritual activity is thus used
to justify the attitudes and behavior that are in truth nothing but the rantings of the unconscious ego,
screaming out in its dream of
want, as the following passage from the text explains:
Dreams are perceptual temper tantrums, in which you literally scream, "I want it thus!" And thus it seems to
be. And yet the dream cannot escape its origin. Anger and fear pervade it, and in an instant the illusion of
satisfaction is invaded by the illusion of terror. For the dream of your ability to control reality by substituting
a world that you prefer is terrifying. Your attempts to blot out reality are very fearful, but this you
are not willing to accept. And so you substitute the fantasy that reality is fearful, not what you would do to
it. And thus is guilt made real.
Dreams show you that you have the power to make a world as you would have it be, and that because you
want it you see it. And while you see it you do not doubt that it is real. Yet here is a world, clearly within
your mind, that seems to be outside. You do not respond to it as though you made it, nor do you realize
that the emotions the dream produces must come from you. It is the figures in the dream and what they do
that seem to make the dream. You do not realize that you are making them act out for you, for if you did
the guilt would not be theirs, and the illusion of satisfaction would be gone
(T-18.II.4:1-5:6).
The truth is that followers of a guru or self-styled spiritual leader or teacher -- examples of the dream
figures stated above -- often skip over the hard steps that comprise the authentic spiritual path of
leaving behind one's ego. There is often the magical hope that simply being in the presence of the teacher is
sufficient. A corollary to this distortion of the spiritual path comes when a teacher or student, guru or
follower, believe that attending special sessions, performing "sacred" rituals, or adhering to "holy" time
schedules will somehow bring about the desired result. The problem in all these instances is the level
confusion of mind and body. Holiness is a state of
mind, and has
nothing to do with the
body, or what the body does or does not do. The true spiritual aspirant may use externals as a
means for expressing a change of mind, but never loses sight of where the problem and the answer lie.
Students of A Course in Miracles can easily trace its emphasis on finding and undoing the negative
back to the pioneering work of Sigmund Freud, which was discussed in previous articles. The problem is
never with our inherent holiness as God's Son, the formless and eternal Christ, but rather with our having
made the decision to choose against such holiness, producing the dream of separation that led to form and
our individual identities. This defense effectively keeps the holiness from our awareness, along with all the
dream roles we assign to ourselves. This approach of the ego rests on very solid psychological foundations:
If we are not aware of our mind's decision to be separate, inevitably leading to guilt and hatred, then the law
of the mind dictates that such repressed hate be projected, but with no awareness that this has been
done (see, e.g., W-pI.136.3-5).
We are taught in the Course that "frightened people can be vicious" (T-3.I.4:2), for it is a corollary to the
mind's law that unrecognized fear -- the core of all the world's dreams -- leads to projected
hate and viciousness. Indeed, the history of the world and its current situations bear striking witness to this
unfortunate truth, whether we are speaking of the political, social, economic, cultural, or religious spheres.
And it is astounding that very few recognize that the insanity of attack leading to murder -- whether
verbally or behaviorally expressed -- can in no way be justified and defended on humanitarian,
religious, or spiritual grounds. To compound this error, ancient and contemporary spiritual documents,
including A Course in Miracles itself, are frequently cited to support such attacks. Yet the bizarre
nature of these oxymoronic dynamics -- spiritual attack -- escapes many.
In the early centuries of the so -- called Christian era, many Gnostic teachers and writers stressed
that ignorance-not understanding the nature and purpose of the world -- was the central problem
that needed to be corrected. One is reminded of the wonderful Valentinian formula:
What liberates is the knowledge of who we were, what we became; where we were,
whereinto we have been thrown; whereto we speed, wherefrom we are redeemed; what birth is, and what
rebirth (quoted in Love Does Not Condemn, dedication page).
Two millennia later, it is sad to report that the same problem is still too much with us, to borrow
Wordsworth's evocative phrase. Even our great technological advances in communication, such as the
information superhighway, can serve to exacerbate the error of ignorance, for now ignorant distortions and
disinformation can be used to more expeditiously and efficiently propagandize, all in the name of knowledge
and freedom, while in many cases the facts and true intentions are never revealed or discerned.
In the section "The Fear of Redemption" (and we can substitute awakening for redemption
here), Jesus states:
You may wonder why it is so crucial that you look upon your hatred and realize its full extent. You may
also think that it would be easy enough for the Holy Spirit to show it to you, and to dispel it without the
need for you to raise it to awareness yourself (T-13.III.1:1-2).
It is an inherent part of the Course teaching that the unconscious of the wrong mind must be brought to
awareness. Once in awareness, we can then make the choice to justify or rationalize the hate, thus keeping
the ego intact, or to ask Jesus or the Holy Spirit to help us let go of this hatred by realizing the pain of
keeping us in the dream that holding on to hate effects. That is why Jesus emphasizes that we "are not
seriously disturbed by (y)our hostility" (T-13.III.1:7). Indeed, our hatred brings us the defensive pleasure of
knowing that someone else is guilty, not ourselves. Yet one can see this perverse dynamic at work in many
spiritual groups and movements -- past and contemporary -- where members luxuriate in
finding persons -- real or imagined -- to "justifiably" attack, judge, condemn, hate, and
sometimes even punish.
It cannot be underscored enough that this letting go of hatred, the first step in the process of healing, is not
possible unless we are first aware of it. As Jesus told Helen Schucman and William Thetford in a
personal message to them at the close of the first year of Helen's scribing of the Course:
You do not realize how much you hate each other. You will not get rid of this until you do realize it,
for until then, you will think you want to get rid of each other and keep the hatred....
Look as calmly as you can upon hatred, for if we are to deny the denial of truth [a reference to T-12.II.1:5
], we must first recognize what we are denying.... Surely you are willing to look upon what you do
not want without fear, even if it frightens you, if you can thereby get rid of it?... Be not afraid
of this journey into fear, for it is not your destination. And we will walk through it in safety, for peace is not
far, and you will be led in its light (Absence from Felicity, 2nd ed., pp.
297-98).
These statements that Jesus made through Helen to her and Bill about their relationship highlight just how
important it is to look at the hatred of our ego, which
seems to be a journey into fear, but is really a
journey of awakening to the love which is our true state. Because of the dynamic of denial, we are simply
not aware of the toxic nature of our hatred, a poison that infects our minds and reinforces delusions of being
unfairly treated, a misperception, again, that we use to justify our hatred and attack of others.
And so the process of awakening -- otherwise known as forgiveness -- can be summed up in
this way:
- We must first be ever-vigilant for the signs of our ego's thoughts of hatred, especially when it
masquerades in religious, spiritual, or idealistic form, be it oral, written, or behavioral. The signs are legion,
once we are willing to look. Attack, judgment, condemnation, jealousy, envy, and even sarcastic humor are
usually good warning signs that we have already made the choice for the wrong inner teacher.
- Now that we are aware that the problem is not what or whom we have judged or
envied, but rather that we have chosen to judge, we can legitimately ask Jesus or the Holy Spirit for
help to uncover within us the source of our attack thoughts. And so it becomes clear that our anger is a
projection of "secret sins" and "hidden hates" (T-31.VIII.9:2) we have attempted to keep from ourselves.
As long as a judgment of another can be justified -- and bringing in scores of others to agree with us
is one of the ego's favorite tactics to reinforce the denial -- then we never have to look within. As
Jesus explains in "Dream Roles":
When you are angry, is it not because someone has failed to fill the function you
allotted him? And does not this become the "reason" your attack is justified? The dreams you think you like
are those in which the functions you have given have been filled; the needs which you ascribe to you are
met. It does not matter if they be fulfilled or merely wanted. It is the idea that they exist from which the fears
arise. Dreams are not wanted more or less. They are desired or not. And each one represents some
function that you have assigned; some goal which an event, or body, or a thing should represent,
and should achieve for you. If it succeeds you think you like the dream. If it should fail you
think the dream is sad. But whether it succeeds or fails is not its core, but just the flimsy covering
(T-29.IV.4; bold emphasis ours).
- Finally, we can recognize that this has been our dream of hatred, and one which we no longer
want to maintain. Our wrong choice corrected and undone at last, our eyes begin to open as we awaken
from the nightmare world of fear and hate, to the glorious world that forgiveness reveals, leading to the
totality of pure Oneness and Love.